#and like..

[dannirr00ni]

the every breath i take is a self confession. my roleplay character of that one shitty fandom who's friends with everyone but would abandon all of them at any moment for a select few, addict of some sort, a dramatic two-faced liar who acts all high and mighty but barely even knows who he is? his brother who's a jerk to everyone, wallows in his self misery, harms himself to get the attention of everyone else, has emotional outbursts three times a day? also me. the way both of them wallow in their stupid misery because it makes them feel more validated than doing all the right things and still feeling like shit? the way every character i own has "shitty and toxic" as part of their personality and is "proud" of it to not have to face the truth crashing down on them that they're actually fucking unbearable to be around? that's all me and yet you see all those and act surprised when i drop you for my best friend? face it penny, if you never expected me to "pull a kaz" and choose my shitty toxic best friend over you, my shitty toxic friend, you're fucking stupid. ive always been like this, ive TOLD YOU the entire personality description was just me. even without telling you you knew, you told me, yet you're the one giving me long-winded surprised speeches on the topic? honey, I'm only really loyal to four people and you were barely ever part of that.

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

I know it’s been talked about ad nauseam, but I think one of the things that got lost in the discourse about TTPD and the muses and whatnot is how one of, if not the core trigger points of the album is the yearning for commitment and perhaps even more poignantly, motherhood.

The reason she was so susceptible to falling for the “conman’s get love quick schemes” is because she was grieving that imagined life with the person she had long assumed would be the one to give her that. What has been beyond clear in several albums, let alone interviews etc, is that those plans for building a family were very much real and top of mind for years, and she kept holding on and shifting her world in service of making that happen. And when whatever happened happened that pulled that rug out from under her, it left her bereft not just for the relationship that had once been her world but also the imagined family she had been hoping for and sticking out the hard times for.

And that’s likely why she was swayed by and trusting of the promises of someone who knew her history and knew how unmooring that loss was to her. It may have been partially about the person himself or lust or whatever, but the core issue was the pain of giving up the dream, and sublimating that dream into this new opportunity in front of her, because she was so desperate to hold onto the last scraps of that imagined life she wanted so badly. (And I don’t mean desperate as in pathetic or negative, I mean as in fighting within the last ounce of energy and hope she had.) It wasn’t rational and it wasn’t love, it was grief, not just for a relationship but even more so for the family it represented.

So to me the core issue of TTPD isn’t just the Joe vs. Matty or whoever of it all: it’s Taylor and her yearning. She wanted a family badly and a life that was theirs and was processing losing that in all kinds of ways. It’s all over the album in overt and subtle lyrics. It may not have been grieving a literal death but I’d bet it felt pretty darn close.

And I’d also bet that’s why we’re seeing… what we’re seeing now.

(I have so many more thoughts about womanhood and motherhood on TTPD but that is another post being worked on piecemeal in my drafts… this is just a little Saturday morning post-zoomies reflection)

[plasmaglacious-dndendtotem]

what sans would i even like? like.. i know obvious answers. but also. i wanna get niche. if i had to choose i wanna find that exact sans/silly

[willgrahamscock]

what I think will happen if I message my mutuals

[catmask]

i dont consider myself a 'fashion guru' by any means but one thing i will say is guys you dont need to know the specific brand an item you like is - you need to know what the item is called. very rarely does a brand matter, but knowing that pair of pants is called 'cargo' vs 'boot cut' or the names of dress styles is going to help you find clothes you like WAAAYYYY faster than brand shopping

[vampiricbisexuality]

like to charge, reblog to cast <3

[inkskinned]

hey... don't cry.... tesla recall for most cybertrucks, okay? >46,000 vehicles affected <3

[podcastwizard]

my most toxic trait is i fucking love work gossip. i play neutral not to be the bigger person or take the high road but to hear slander and hearsay from every side. two coworkers complained about each other to me in the same afternoon and i nearly blacked out from the rush

[redstonedust]

phenomenom thats been bothering me that i could only express via an mspaint reverse boomer comic

[ducktollers]

🐊🐊🐊🐊🐊

[2022dirt]

Things worn down by people.

[scaryorganmusic]

what fucking hell dimension are y’all blogging from

[slightly-gay-pogohammer]

pokèmonize yourself!!!!

spin this wheel to see your pokemon type

spin this one to see how you'll look like

[ryderdire]

Really interesting thing I glimpsed on rednote today

I think We- we’re developing international class consciousness 

[aromantic-goldfishdeactivated202]

I find it so funny, in light of TikTok’s imminent American demise, that even now they aren’t considering moving to tumblr. The last two social media refugee crises (Twitter -> X and whatever happened with Reddit) prompted a wave of wide-eyed new baffled tumblr users to flood this app and yet last I heard all of the tiktokers are flooding en-masse a Chinese social media app. That is entirely in Mandarin. Instead of moving to tumblr.